Charlotte

i realize that shows like 20/20 and other big networks have their "missing person" "unsolved mysteries" shows and i'm sure they draw big viewership. not to mention shows like law and order...

a couple of months ago the author of the book After Etan : The Missing Child Case That Held America Captive, came in and slyly inquired where her book was.
and it eventually hit the front table and sold very well.
i don't have a problem with a book selling well.
the fascination of the story bothers me, more so, the kind of person that dedicates a chunk of their life researching what must be agony, pain, anger, sadness and frustration on the victim's family's life.

basically i'm saying that the author and other's like her, are nutty as nutella.

and dammit, i can't turn off law and order right now.

weekends suck...i mean they're great!!!
maybe it's b/c i've grown up with the mentality that Shabbat is a time to relax- and that means you too foods.

( weekend foods! )

not doing so great, but not so bad. could be better.

things are good
going away next weekend to boston to visit!!!
excited. i need a break. i know it's a 5 hr trek but at least i can sleep on teh bus or something

we got rock band!!!!!! and we're having an amazing time playing together and with friends
otherwise
hot sweaty and humid. fuck you new york city.  and oh yeah. thanks for the fare hike. asshole.

semi good food day
( foods )

today was actually an interesting day- i hiked down to the farmer's market on 175th and broadway
i was a little afraid that the market would be full of yucca and plantains. nope.
plenty of in seasons staples- onions/carrots and the such
i scooped up fresh mint, rainbow chard, rhubarb, and sugar peas.
and on the way home from work i picked up strawberries and bananas

( foods eated )

( foods eated )

tomorrow is market day!!

so far.
ice coffee- no sugar, teaspoon cream


**found recipe for anise almond biscotti. must make.

( foods ) 

( foods  )( foods )

questioning my knowledge as i tell you something as a response to your question- is a faux pas. how do i know? b/c i'm fucking telling you i know.
it was like i was having a conversation with a two year old.

anyways- the next part is under a cut b/c it'll be boring and only useful to me-
i am starting to chronicle what i eat

that's right - a food journal-
ever poke at yourself and think- i could have sworn that wasn't there a day or so ago.
yeah well- it's more than just a poke, it's hit prod like status and I HATE IT.

( food eated! )

i talked to my mom in IL and it is stormin'!

two projects going on and finally working on
-writing sample for a ghostwriting gig.
-graphic poem collection- think illustrated poems, now to write more poems that don't suck


today is domestic day
cook
bake
clean
laundry
cat food?! <---and litter

idk what's going on at store- restlessness? frustration? a deep void of uplifting moral?
so how does anyone keep doing their job
i think i do the shelving and phones out of sheer boredom and occasionally i get to read.


so today is strawberry soup day.
and challahs
and chocolate cake from allrecipes.com
hopefully i'll get everything finished before it starts pouring

yeah....
i walked into the kitchen to get things set up and best i could do was munch down on the last of the vanilla granola from fairway.
do i have a procrastination problem or an eating problem?


want to make (banana) muffins for dudes at work. last night was blah and i think a pick up would be good.

i feel like this week has been.... eventful
mordy started grad school at NYU
stupid crohns making his tummy hurt.

however i've been more determined to do one pot dinners for him when he gets home/ stuff for me to eat the next day.
so far- chicken curry from crockpot365.com, and chili from allrecipes.com
so far so good.

and i think next week i'll do chicken taco soup and corn bread


food aside...work has been a bit tough since we're short staffed and everyday seems to contain a major case of the stupids or incredibly mean or rude people so as a result i'm ready to go home


last week we went to the MoCCA Festival- which was pretty cool. got to meet Brian Wood (DMZ and Local) and Tara McPherson and Fred Chad (Johnny Hiro)
had a great time

idk. maybe i should keep a running print journal b/c i start to feel scattered brained.
i think i feel more so today b/c i was in the middle of doing something and my manager kinda chased me out and i felt very weird doing something half-assed even if it is filling the paperbacks.
and i'm sleepy and i want to read everything that i bought recently- Olive Kitteridge, Sorrows of an american by siri hustvedt and elegance of the hedgehog by barbery.
currently trying to finish house for mr. biswas.

loooong day and i just have to get this down
-go to yoga with david
- try to change
-realize shirt was gonna wear was left home, no shirt to wear
-go to kmart/buy shirt
-got to MET
-see MET
-leave MET
-go to bus stop
-realize metrocard is in yoga bag with david at met
-decide to walk through central park to work
-get lost.
-call ppl frantically
- call work frantically
-get to work late b/c i got lost in central park
-work


literally a year ago, i kinda met these two people- guy and girl from the neighborhood who had a corgi puppy
yesterday, ran into them again! puppy big!
i'm work today- they come into store, recognize me!! and say hi!! :)

i get huffed at by customer b/c HE mumbles
me genius and figure out request.
i huff right back.
he comes over and apologizes.

i guess some good today. :)


my apartment is a damn youth hostel.
David over, Abby over, Jeff- friend's brother over tomorrow.



i need a nap.
and thank goodness i have shavuot figured out.
miriam is bestest and i'll be meeting ppl in this community that i have no idea bout.
probably a good thing.

what music got you through a certain time period in your life?

for no good reason- jimmy eat world- bleed american got me through my freshman year of college.
and i was listening to it today and i felt- young. like innocent/naive young again. as if the world held limitless possibilities.

i also realized i really want to write a book/fiction.
but a good one. an interesting one. but sellable.

maybe about a displaced mid-western chick who is pretty sure she hears the train whistle from her apartment, but knows that she isn't near any tracks like she was growing up.
but was she on the wrong side? then and now?
has being in a different city really changed her? or the quiet solitude of her current life replaced a self that longed to romp in a city that offers so much?
what can she find in such a state of being? not herself- not sure.


anyway...
loooooooooooong day at work.
there was a serious case the crazies today.
and sometimes i swear i feel like i'm joining the ranks
fresh yogurt in fridge!!! will try it out tomorrow.

wohoo!!!

ok. so i was able to make it to mordy's honors english department presentation
but i am not going to San Diego with him at the end of the month/shavuot- so i have to figure out what i'm doing for that holiday. i'm pretty sure i'm staying home as of right now.
and i have a killer brownie recipe i can't wait to try out.
http://www.thekitchn.com/thekitchn/sweets/recipe-one-bowl-mascarpone-brownies-084470
i basically need to bring a list to zabars and choke down the cost for top of the line cocoa powder, chocolate bars, and mascarpone and oh yeah, some whipping cream.

anyways
i've got some advanced reader's copies i'm getting through
two graphic novels
stiches
logixcomic

i love reading this new stuff and i enjoy having managers give me stuff and ask for input. and yes i'm not making shit up, they want my opinion on it all.

i ran into someone last week who was complaining about being on unemployment (i think the complaint was really about obama tho) and for the first time i was actually glad i had a job.

so summer is going to be summer. hopefully we can catch stuff like Shakespeare in the park or a day of siren festival or movies in bryant park


p.s- i'm glad to hear from those of you who are in israel!!

i realize that most people's lives are pretty complicated and have things going on
i have my dark apartment going on.
for the last 4 years i've lived in apartments that don't have direct sunlight or airflow.
and while it is cloudy outside, i'd love to see the sky through my window

waking up is saddening, i don't like my living room, it's always dark, which means i need to turn on a lamp all the time.


i really wish we could move.
i also wish we had a couch instead of our lumpy futon which i love but it is starting to suck.

he is hys.ter.ical sometimes

i get up to go to the bathroom, and he's still sitting in the chair
i come back and he's gone, and not in the living room anywhere
not under the radiator
or on his kitty tree
and not in the kitchen

he's in bed. on my side
waiting for me to to get in
so he can crawl under the covers
and curl up next to my butt.

i'm not sure what it is about me-
i get a lot of comments that i look so much than i really am.
ok. that's nice

but i think i tend to dress young and sloppy
i'm not in college- duh- and i don't need to dress like it- aka a freshman

i really need a good haircut right now
and clothes that a bit more mature
some pants that fit
and some button down too-hipster plaids would be nice.

le sigh.

what i do have-
sweaters and hoodies and tshirt
i just found out that some if not all of my long sleeved shirts have holes, and they're really old hence the holes

really i just want some slacks for work.
and a million dollars too

however it was snowing today how very chicao weather like
i put in a request for transfer- the two east side locations are closing and one big one is opening up and with that i hope my chance for mobility will as well

i'm working and working and sorta cooking around
i'm just very happy living as such
not much in the way of worries

i DID want to make bread bowls but i have a yeast question and until it gets resolved i'm not in the mood to fuck around with it.

i treated myself to a present last week-
a beautiful black Sabina bag from urban outfitters- let's just say it was a GREAT sale.
so finally i'm starting to look like adult

need still:
new underthings
new pants- preferably for work
new haircut

it's burger night!!!

i dreamt-

got out of work and a huge snow blizzard had happened in one hour.
me- guy- girl pointed our fingers up and together and said- cab it!

so i waited on the corner and the guy pulls up.
we start heading downtown and i say i live uptown
so he goes around some blocks and dumps me on 49th and 3rd avenue.
in the cold in the snow
and for some reason i had to pee (apparently i did post dream as well. go figure)
so i miserable in my dream and miles away from home or train station.
ok not really. the 6 line was relatively close by but my dream self didn't really grasp that

so i woke up.